Friday, February 5, 2010

Dynamic Reading

Robert Duvall as Boo Radley

I remember reading it for the first time while lying on the porch swing. I don't know if the image of light, filtered by the canopy of the swing, on the pages of To Kill a Mockingbird is real or imagined, but I do know that I loved the hours spent reading it. I remember closing the book and just laying there thinking. More importantly I remember I was changed by it. It was one of those changes I didn't know how to talk about. Like the character Jem, I turned inward with my thoughts, knowing I was different, but not knowing how, not knowing what to do with my new knowledge, my new self.

I just finished it for the fourth time. The circumstances around my completion were hardly so picturesque. I was on my bed, my desk was cluttered, a pair of dirty jeans on the floor. But closing the book caused the same reaction. I just laid there thinking, knowing I was once again changed.

I still don't completely know how to talk about how this book moves and changes me each time I read it, I think I will always be like Jem in that way. But it does. I think the thing I gained from it the most this time was the virtue and value of sight.


Cassidy said...

I love that book.

Neighbor Jane Payne said...

I really need to read that book again. I remember feeling exactly how you describe . . . changed with no articulation for it. It was the best find of the '90's for me (and I can safely say that because all of you kids were born in the 80's).

I REALLY appreciate the insights you gave to me about it on the phone the other night. Thank you.

Rachel said...

oooo... give me insights Ande, give me some too. Did you read it for a class or just for fun?

Traci said...

This book changed me too. I have read it many times over, and each time I feel as you so aptly described. Changed. I stumbled upon your blog and loved that you have To Kill a Mockingbird and Clark Cable on one blog! :)